Tuesday, September 02, 2008
u know...
sometimes i reli wish tt i was pretty/beautiful/cute...
or had a more vibrant personality...a beta character...
at least i wun have to worry abt my bf finding some other girl more attractive.
he has lots of friends..n when they meet up...they bring their friends along..
so he gets to know lots of new ppl..
or should i say....lots of new girls..
yea yea..i mean..i know...looks are only skin deep n all..
but looks do play a part...a big part.....
lyk sri said..."if u were pretty, i would have dated u"
HA!
but anyways...dis is not abt sri n me..
i mean...ramu n i r serious abt each other...
but there's always tt naggin feeling...
de fear tt i may lose him to some1 with beta looks n character.
i have to face the fact that there are truckloads of reli pretty indian girls out there..
n some of the girls tt he know..r lyk..reli pretty..
he always have girls...tellin him how much they lyk his hair...his style..
it's not tt i'm jealous...i'm jus worried...
i dun have guys wantin to get to know me...let alone good-lookin guys..
i dunno..
maybe i'm jus being paranoid la....
i mean..i trust him n all...
but how long does it take for an att guy to have a thing for some other girl...??
especially if the girl shows interest in him..
if de girl lives ard his area..
if the girl doesn't club/drink/smoke..
if he thinks de girl is gf material..
if he n de girl look into each others eyes for longer den a second during a dinner..
if he thinks de girl is cute...
haiz...lots of what ifs....
i dun lyk de word if.
period.
love you deep deep.
