Friday, January 04, 2008
well..life has been pretty good...i've with someone who knows me well..
hu understands me for hu i am..
n is willing to accept me as i am..
above all, he loves me alot..and i can't imagine being without him..
a few months ago, i was trying to solve a prob with someone who din care..
i din realise that de right guy for me could be right next to me..
listening to all my problems..helping me when i'm not well..
giving a shouder to lean on..
but thank god..i realised it soon enough..
now..i'm thinkin abt how life would have been if i had chose to ignore de platter of gold left in front of me..
i would still be cursing and swearing guys for being insensitive..
i would still be doing my best to stay away from love..
i would still be insisting that being single is de best way to lead my life..
but things change..especially when u meet someone who u know u wanna spend de rest of ur life with..
even if problems arise..even if de society disagrees..even if de fam n friends refuse to accept..
it's my guy..n it's my life..
even now..he's stressed up over some guy hu sent me some stupid testi on friendster..
if he ever meets de guy, he will kill him!
haha..that's how he is..
he stays up all night, thinkin abt me..
no one has ever done that for me..
to tell de truth, it brought tears to my eyes..
while i was up watchin a movie..he was up thinkin of me..
it made me realise jus how much i meant to him..
how big of a role i play in his life..
we're in de midst of a 3 week break from skl..
we met up a few times..
n each time we part..he has dis look on his face..
i know he doesn't want me to leave..
i know he would love to just hold me tight..
i know he would want me in his arms..
even as i walk away from him..
i feel lyk turning back and not leaving his side..
but we both know tt we can't do that..
he knows tt i would be sad if he looks sad..
so he tries to smile and look happy..
but i know wat's going on inside him..i know how he feels..
cos i'm feelin de same way..
when my parents shout at me..i jus wanna call him..n hear his voice..
somehow it makes me feel much beta..makes me more calm..
i have cousins, best friends and godsiblings to turn to when i'm down..
but it's nth compared to having ur bf tell u that everything is going to be ok..
my past..is not something tt i'm proud of..
i have had terrible experiences with guys, which somehow led to..me being insecure when it comes to relationships..
but when i'm with him..i dun have a reason to feel insecure..
he makes me feel lyk as though i'm de most important thing ever..
i'm his princess..n he's my golden devil..
to my dearest ramu..
i love you :)
love you deep deep.
well..life has been pretty good...