Friday, September 14, 2007
"You made me cry...
You tore me apart..
You left me in tears..
You've shattered my heart..
It wasn't your fault..
I guess it was me..for love can't be forced..
Perhaps we weren't meant to be..
It still doesn't help..now that i know..
Because for some reason..my heart won't let go..
I've tried more than once.. to get over you..
but you make it so hard.. with cute things you do..
I thought love was joy..but i've got nothing to gain..
just sorrows..tears..and a little more pain..
The day the pain started ..reality came too..
It was the day i realized ...
I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU..."
i read this from a gal's blog..she's a friend of hemma..it made me realise tt there are other gals going thru de same shit tt i am..when i read tt post, i seem to have dis connection with a gal tt i barely even know..it's exactly how i feel abt him..i mean..up to dis day, i wonder if he knows anythin at all..i can see lil changes in him n all..n tt's a gd thing..i dunno how i reli feel at dis point of time..but when he comes online..it brings a smile to my face..when he msgs me..i still feel my heart beat faster..when i see him outside..it reminds me of de times we had in sec skl..n i realise tt i want him more den anything else..but i know tt he does not share de same feelings..yes hemma..i know i have to move on..but when i reli can't do it..when my heart does not permit it..wat can i do?i wanna sit down and talk to him abt dis..but i dunno wat it will result in..if it's gonna make him stop talkin to me..stop crackin jokes..den i would rather leave things as they are..but can i go on? without knowin how he feels?can i move on? when i finally know?how much will his answer affect me?when there are so many things to take into consideration..i jus dunno wat to do..i can't seem to decide..sometimes..he hints tt we may be together..other times..he jus feigns ignorance..i feel lyk i'm pushin against de wall..wantin de wall to move..but knowin tt it never will..with scratches and bruises on my hands, feet and shoulders..and in my heart..i jus lean against de wall..n cry my heart out..still hoping tt de wall will somehow move..it nvr will..
love you deep deep.
