ppl ask me y i dun trust them. but how am i to explain to them? that too many ppl broke my trust. that too many ppl took advantage of my trust. that too many ppl lied using my trust. that i got whacked bcos of this trust. and even when i do explain, they jus act lyk they understand.. u wun understand unless u have been thru the same screwed up shit.
u have a major major crush on my friend.. u want her?? go fuckin get her urself.. u beg me to create "opportunities" for u guys to meet.. when she finally gets interested in u, i become invisible.. u're lyk KAVI HU?? fuck u man.
so yea, i know i'm not gf material.. u dun have to love me.. all i needed was a friend. ok i admit i wanted u to be more den a friend. but when i knew there wuld be no such possibility, i left things the way they were.. u dunno abt my feelings.. yet again.. i'm jus one of the girls.. izit me or do i always get to know this kinda guys?
so i get upset.. remain quiet. no laughter..no smiles.. nth at all.. u ask me wat's wrong. i say nth. u get bored. divert ur attention on sum1 else. after all, she's ur kinda gurl. all i can do is stare at the both of u.. i ask myself.. wtf am i still doing, standin there? i wanna turn n leave, but some1 holds my hand. i turn, thinkin tt maybe u have changed ur mind, but it's some other guy..
a guy i consider only as a friend. some1 hu always leans his shoulder my way. some1 hu's always there to listen to me.. he smiles at me.. i'm hurt, but for some reason, i'm able to smile back. tt day, i saw sumthin else in him.. maybe.. jus maybe..we could have been together.. but no..things din go my way..as usual..
n even now, i'm wonderin y i'm wastin my time typin all this shit.. at de end of the day, nth changes. i'll still be me.. u'll still be u.. they'll still be them.. only 1 thing changes. another piece of my heart breaks..
