Monday, November 27, 2006
well...dis happened a long time ago..but i was jus thinkin abt it again.sec 1.haiz.de beginning of a wonderful journey.den i met u.u were everything i ever wanted.i know it sounds lyk a line from some love story.but it was true.i reli liked u..but of course, i was nth to u.i was jus some sec 1 gurl hu liked u.u know tt u're good-lookin n all.i tried so hard to get to know u more.i was so stupid.i actually admitted to u.i spilled everything out.i was so foolish, believing that u were de 1 for me..but i was not ur type.i was not good-lookin enough.i was not cute enough.i was not kool enough.i was not sweet enough.i was not nice enough.i was jus not enough for u.i was too "fucked up"..u told me off.told me tt u will nvr ever lyk me, no matter how hard u try.u wanted de de best gurl for urself.n i was not on tt list.u hopped from 1 gurl to another.playing ard..i still liked u, despite de whole playboy thingy..i was always there for u.listen to u tok abt other gurls.u knew tt i liked u so much..u also knew tt i wuld give anythin to chat with u for hours on msn.so u decided to hurt me.u were bored n u hated me.we talked endlessly on msn.if we talked abt ourselves, den it's a different story.but u tok abt de gurls u liked, ur girlfriends..nth else mattered to u.u oni cared abt urself.i wondered y i actually stayed up, chattin with u.but at tt time, it seemed lyk de oni way i get to spend time with u..u purposely asked me to intro u to gurls tt i knew.u said, "make sure they're chio, if not, dun bother".u knew how much it wuld hurt me..it was horrible..more den u can imagine..but i was ur puppet.u had aredi ruined my relationship, jus "for fun"..u were planning to ruin my secondary skl life.but things din go ur way.u broke my heart, over n over again.2 yrs later..u say i'm ur kinda gurl.u apologize 4 all de pain u have caused me.but it's too late.i know u're phony.u're a bitch.de oni thing u know is how to flirt with all de beautiful indian gurls.n make de rest, lyk me, feel disgusted with ourselves..u had ur time to play ard n hurt me.i'm not gonna let u do it again.2 yrs of cryin over u taught me many lessons.during these 2 yrs, there were other guys hu asked me out.but i had oni 1 name in my heart..yours.i refused to allow any1 else in.i kept on forcing myself to believe that u will change ur mind.u did, but lemme tell u sumthin.u have no idea how FAKE u sounded.screw urself man, i have wasted so much time on u..till dis day, i tell myself tt i'm over u.but somewhere in my heart, in some small corner, u're still there.u jus refuse to disappear.i reli reli wanna get u out of my mind.i hate u for lingering ard..get lost.i hate u.
love you deep deep.
